CompAg02:
Hi!
KrysKutie7:
hey
CompAg02:
How was your day at school today?
KrysKutie7:
oh it was okay
CompAg02:
So how did that party go last night?
KrysKutie7:
Oh my goodness....
KrysKutie7:
I don't remember...
CompAg02:
Why? What happened?
CompAg02:
You didn't do anything you'll regret, did you?
KrysKutie7:
the last thing I remember is waking up in
this house...
CompAg02:
What??
CompAg02:
Did you take drinks from anybody?
CompAg02:
I told you you can't trust the guys at parties like that!!
KrysKutie7:
no....i made my own drinks
KrysKutie7:
Like I said Idon't remember half of it....
CompAg02:
Hm? How much did you drink?
CompAg02:
Estimate!
KrysKutie7:
something to do with bottles of vodka...
KrysKutie7:
and I think I remember rum....
KrysKutie7:
yeah...because I wanted to try rum with Dr.
Pepper instead of coke
CompAg02:
Oh, so you had several bottles of vodka and rum, huh? Get your bartending
license through the mail?
CompAg02:
Sorry, don't mean to be mean.
KrysKutie7:
That's okay...I probably deserve it
KrysKutie7:
I remember there was this guy...
CompAg02:
So, whose house did you wake up in?
CompAg02:
Do you remember if you did anything with whoever lives there?
CompAg02:
What guy! So you woke up in some guy's house??
KrysKutie7:
I think .....I think...i did
CompAg02:
What do you mean??? What do you 'think... i did'?
KrysKutie7:
He was really cute...
KrysKutie7:
I've seen him around school several times...
CompAg02:
The guy? Was it Eric??
CompAg02:
Oh. not him, then
KrysKutie7:
I think I was thinking he was Eric....
CompAg02:
You mean you were comparing him to him, or you were already that drunk???!!!?!??
KrysKutie7:
Like...at first....he reminded me a lot of
him...so I trusted him...
KrysKutie7:
he was my Eric replacment if you will
CompAg02:
Oh crap. How much trust are we talkin' here?
KrysKutie7:
He was so sweet...saying all the right things
KrysKutie7:
really a sweeper off of your feet
CompAg02:
woah, there. YOUR feet, not mine.
CompAg02:
;-)
KrysKutie7:
Sorry...I meant...nevermind
CompAg02:
So, did you do anything, you know, *permanent*
KrysKutie7:
explain permanent
CompAg02:
You're still a virgin, RIGHT????
KrysKutie7:
umm....
KrysKutie7:
I'm going to cry
CompAg02:
Oh no.... You didn't...
CompAg02:
I thought I was being sarcastic!
CompAg02:
Krystal, I want you to know, whatever you did, I don't hate you...
CompAg02:
You can tell me anything...
KrysKutie7:
Hate?
CompAg02:
I don't think you're a bad person.
CompAg02:
Everybody makes mistakes.
CompAg02:
some bigger than other...
KrysKutie7:
I screwed up so bad
CompAg02:
how bad? If you don't think you can tell me, you don't have to...
KrysKutie7:
I'm really scared
CompAg02:
Have you told anyone else about this?
CompAg02:
Should you talk this over with another girl, like Jenny or somebody?
KrysKutie7:
I can not tell Jenny!
KrysKutie7:
She will so kill me.
KrysKutie7:
Promise me!
KrysKutie7:
Promise me you will not tell her
CompAg02:
I won't tell anything you don't want me to. But you shouldn't keep this
to just yourself and me.
KrysKutie7:
Who else would I tell?!?
CompAg02:
Have you taken a pregnancy test? umm.... Is that an issue?
KrysKutie7:
I hope not
KrysKutie7:
I can't remember that much
CompAg02:
I don't know! But *I*'m not qualified to deal with this!
CompAg02:
Isn't a girl supposed to, you know, just *know*?
KrysKutie7:
I don't kno!
KrysKutie7:
What do you think I do this all the time!
KrysKutie7:
I'm not a slut. I screwed up really bad! I'm
so scared...
CompAg02:
so you had a lot to drink, and you probably had unsafe sex.
CompAg02:
Did anything else happen? Do you remember anything else?
CompAg02:
Have you thought about waiting a week, and then having a blood test taken?
Most STDs won't hurt you before then, but they'll definitely show up in
your
blood by then.
CompAg02:
I know you don't want to think about stuff like that... but it IS important!
KrysKutie7:
What if....
KrysKutie7:
What if...
KrysKutie7:
Oh my god!
CompAg02:
umm.... do you think a blood test would show anything besides the possible
infection? do you think there's a chance you took anything besides a bunch
of
alchohol?
CompAg02:
You don't think you did any of the, umm... more dangerous drugs, do you?
KrysKutie7:
It was a party...your typical party...it was
really dark and the music was so loud
CompAg02:
How did you feel when you woke up? Did you feel disoriented, confused?
KrysKutie7:
How the hell do you think I would feel?!?!?!
CompAg02:
How did you explain things to your parents?
KrysKutie7:
I'm not telling them...
KrysKutie7:
there is no way I'm telling them...
CompAg02:
weren't they curious about where you spent the night??!?!?!??
KrysKutie7:
My cousin stuck up for me
CompAg02:
That was nice of her, I guess.
KrysKutie7:
She owed me one....
KrysKutie7:
I've done the same for her
KrysKutie7:
Okay...I remember...
CompAg02:
Who threw the party? Was it a group that might be into that kind of thing?
You know, heavier drugs??
KrysKutie7:
There were a lot of people. No one I really
know because it was a bunch of seniors.
KrysKutie7:
I don't even remember how I met this guy...
KrysKutie7:
we started dancing
KrysKutie7:
really close...really close...
CompAg02:
I can't even dance at a distance. :)
KrysKutie7:
That's when he started kissing me...I've never
been kissed before so it was all new to me...
CompAg02:
Don't be nervous or anything. You can trust me.
KrysKutie7:
Like I said he reminds me a lot of Eric...so
I was fantasizing about him the whole time
CompAg02:
oh man. So, do you at least remember his name?
KrysKutie7:
Tim
KrysKutie7:
That's another thing...his name was Tim.
CompAg02:
Do you know the last name? If you do turn up pregnant, or sick, they'll
need to know that.
KrysKutie7:
I don't know...
KrysKutie7:
I didn't really care
CompAg02:
Krystal!
KrysKutie7:
What?!
KrysKutie7:
Look at me!
CompAg02:
That's not like you!! (as much as I can tell from how long I've known you)
KrysKutie7:
I've never even had a boyfriend
KrysKutie7:
I've been lonely since day one!
KrysKutie7:
Here was this guy who actually wanted me!!!
CompAg02:
Yeah, for your personality!
KrysKutie7:
Why would I care what his last name was!
KrysKutie7:
I didn't see that
CompAg02:
Geez krystal!
KrysKutie7:
What?
KrysKutie7:
You can't tell me that if you were me....
CompAg02:
Sorry. You just don't seem to see this as as big a deal as I do.
CompAg02:
I'm not you, so I can't say.
KrysKutie7:
Exactly...you're not me...you have never felt
what I've felt...
CompAg02:
I've been pretty lonely before.
CompAg02:
I'm sorry. I'm trying to be compassionate here.
KrysKutie7:
You've never known true love and then have
it ripped away from you....
KrysKutie7:
I wanted that back
KrysKutie7:
and he was giving it back to me
CompAg02:
So, has he tried to see you since last night?
KrysKutie7:
I didn't even see him the next morning.
KrysKutie7:
I can't believe what I did!
KrysKutie7:
Half the stuff I remember isn't like me!
KrysKutie7:
None of this is like me!
CompAg02:
I hope not! When you drink, you're just not yourself. Don't think you're
a bad person now or anything.
KrysKutie7:
You don't think I'm a bad person!
KrysKutie7:
You don't think I'm a bad person!!!
CompAg02:
I don't, I don't.
KrysKutie7:
I kissed a girl. For this asshole, I kissed
a girl!
CompAg02:
I just think you're a confused person who did bad things.
CompAg02:
What?!?!? Was that part like Eric too??
CompAg02:
You didn't do anything, you know, freaky, did you?
CompAg02:
Are you still.... . like.... legally heterosexual?
KrysKutie7:
What the hell? You men really jump the gun
don't you.
CompAg02:
Sorry, I'm not trying to be a pervert!
CompAg02:
I'm just trying to find out what happened!!
KrysKutie7:
I am still heterosexual....however...
KrysKutie7:
I did something out of my sexuality...for
a brief time
CompAg02:
Geez! I'd NEVER do that!
KrysKutie7:
thanks....
CompAg02:
I mean, with a guy...
CompAg02:
I mean, wasn't that, like, REALLY freaky???
KrysKutie7:
I can't even see myself with another girl...but
I was
KrysKutie7:
I feel so gross...
KrysKutie7:
Like I've been completely violated...up and
down.
CompAg02:
you know what they say, about most guys being "into that.." well, it's
not true. That sort of thing is just really sick!
CompAg02:
up and down???? I don't even want to know what that means!
CompAg02:
Do you know who the girl was? It wasn't your cousin was it?
KrysKutie7:
no...god no...
CompAg02:
thank goodness...
KrysKutie7:
my cousin was not there.
CompAg02:
Don't want to add incest to the bottom of your little black list.
CompAg02:
Sorry, I don't mean to sound judgemental.
CompAg02:
I'm sorry.
CompAg02:
It's just... Gay people just REALLY freak me out.
KrysKutie7:
That's oka...
CompAg02:
I mean, that's the most disgusting act I can possibly imagine. And now
I found out somebody I thought I respected did it... ugh.
CompAg02:
I'm not saying i don't respect you anymore. But geez!
KrysKutie7:
Do you think I respect myself now...
CompAg02:
Sorry. Didn't mean to put it that way.
KrysKutie7:
I completely turned myself around
CompAg02:
what do you mean, turned yourself around?
KrysKutie7:
I went from this person who was semi-normal...to
what ever it is I am....an alchoholic drug filled slut.
CompAg02:
drug filled!??!?!?? So you did do some of that other stuff?
CompAg02:
you're not a slut. if what you did was out of character, you're not a slut.
don't tell yourself that
KrysKutie7:
I think that's what started all of this...
CompAg02:
that would explain a lot!
KrysKutie7:
I knew I would never get anywhere dressing
the way I do
KrysKutie7:
look where it took me
CompAg02:
what did you wear? The clothes make the man, so to speak.
KrysKutie7:
I can never do colorguard again...the band
directors can see the tracks in my arms....
CompAg02:
Oh my god!
CompAg02:
You used needles!???
KrysKutie7:
I wore this tight little black outfit
CompAg02:
don't tell me any more about your outfit.
KrysKutie7:
Obviously...I woke up with my arms bleeding
CompAg02:
ohmigosh!!!
CompAg02:
You should really get that blood test soon!
CompAg02:
There are places that will do that confidentially.
KrysKutie7:
I can't afford it.
CompAg02:
Do you have your own car?
KrysKutie7:
yes
KrysKutie7:
a trucj
KrysKutie7:
truck
CompAg02:
I could pay for it. Besides, if you go to downtown Dallas, a lot of places
will dothat for free.
CompAg02:
To lower the spread of aids, and all that.
KrysKutie7:
i wouldn't even know where to start....
CompAg02:
Call the operator. The whole political system is designed to be able to
help people in your situation.
CompAg02:
if you want, I'll look up some numbers. there are resources for that kind
of stuff on the internet
KrysKutie7:
I need to talk to someone about this....but
I can't tell Jenny or my parents...
KrysKutie7:
I don't know who will listen....
CompAg02:
Could you talk to your pastor about it? Do you know him that well?
KrysKutie7:
I can not go to Eric.
KrysKutie7:
I don't have a pastor
CompAg02:
oh.
KrysKutie7:
I wonder...
CompAg02:
what ?
KrysKutie7:
I...I have this friend....
KrysKutie7:
Tim Hurst...he's one of my good friends
CompAg02:
that could help you?
CompAg02:
do you REALLY trust him?
KrysKutie7:
but he's very Christian....I'm scared of what
he'll say or do.
CompAg02:
A true christian is understanding.
KrysKutie7:
I would probably never talk to me again...
KrysKutie7:
you don't know Tim...
KrysKutie7:
we have had several arguements....Christian
or not
CompAg02:
You're right, I don't. Isn't there some sort of counsellor at your school
who's supposed to offer confidential help or something like that?
KrysKutie7:
Mrs. Hubbard?
KrysKutie7:
No
CompAg02:
If you go to a person in authority, they're supposed to just help you,
no questions asked
CompAg02:
Oh. I'm sorry.
CompAg02:
Garland schools had a better system for things like that.
KrysKutie7:
There's no one...
KrysKutie7:
This is Berkner!
CompAg02:
I don't know about Berkner!
KrysKutie7:
A very respectable school....like Berkner...never
has problems...
KrysKutie7:
Their students are perfect!
CompAg02:
Yeah, I know what you mean. A school's rating means a lot.
CompAg02:
you should call a support line or something.
KrysKutie7:
I don't know....
CompAg02:
I just found one on the internet, 1-800-hope-dfw
KrysKutie7:
I think the only thing I can do is wait
CompAg02:
It's supposed to be 24-hour confidentail advice about stuff like that.
CompAg02:
don't let this go too long... You shouldn't try to handle all of this yourself.
KrysKutie7:
I just have to give it time.
KrysKutie7:
I won't know anything for sure until, like
you said, a week goes by
CompAg02:
whatever you do, don't talk to that guy again!
CompAg02:
He's pure trouble!
KrysKutie7:
Duh!
CompAg02:
I know, but obviously you've made bad decisions before!
CompAg02:
Sorry, that wsa outta line.
KrysKutie7:
Look obviously....this doesn't mean anything
to you
KrysKutie7:
I don't even know why I told you
CompAg02:
I'm sorry! I didn't mean to be rude.
KrysKutie7:
I have to go,
KrysKutie7:
I can't be around this anymore...
CompAg02:
Look. We're both upset right now. Let's just talk about this later.
CompAg02:
goodnight.
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